Thursday, August 22, 2013

I wanted to share this with you all...

I wrote this post in Facebook yesterday, and I wanted to share it with my Blog family too!
 My dad passed away 23 years ago today (August 22). I remember that he passed a week before my 13th birthday and it shattered my conception of the world. I withdrew completely, I used to be such a happy child and after this happened... I became quiet and shy and the light in me had been turned down. I stopped smiling, I stopped feeling. I was not going to let anyone else in my heart if there was any chance of it hurting that bad! 

 That is how I lived my life for most of these past 23 years, some of you have made things brighter for me along the way, and I want to thank you for lighting my way. I am sorry if I pushed you aside at times. I love you all for being part of my life.

 This is the first time that I am sharing about my dad with you, and frankly I think it is time! I don't have to steel him in my heart, as he will always be there even if I tell you this "my secret". My dad was a spectacular person. He adopted me when I was little and raised me as his own. To him I was his own! And he loved me so much!

 He was a sociologist and he taught at the university in Panama. He was such an important part that the library is named after him. I remember receiving condolence letters from world leaders in Latin America! Getting a letter from the Bolivian president telling you how much your dad will be missed? Now that I think about it, it is completely surreal! All of them were filed away... It might be time to revisit them soon.

 I am about to turn the age that my dad was when he died. My dad died when he was 36, and he was able to impact the life of countless people around the world. It is outstanding and humbling to finally be able to notice that! Guess it is time for both me and my brother to "stand in the shoulders of giants" and make an impact on our world.

I don't know how things would be for me now if he was still around. But I am thankful for everything that has happened as it has made me the person that I am today! I am able to see that I have made and make a difference in my world, and I thank you all for being part of it!

So I leave you with pictures of my dad! He was so handsome, and a great friend! You were truly lucky if you got a chance to meet him and to call Rafael Paniza your friend. For me... He was and will always be my dad. And I love you dad!